You know you’re attached to someone when you’ve gotten so used to talking to them on a daily basis and they’ve become a part of your happiness. But when you guys don’t talk, it’s like a part of you is gone and you just start to miss them uncontrollably.
Today I was passive-aggressively insulted. I was basically told that I suck because I am not paying attention to or wallowing with a person who is permanently stuck in a situation where they are going nowhere and are miserable with their life. I am “too busy being happy” to pay attention to them.
I was kind of offended at first but then I realized it was a huge compliment!
Because I AM happy. I am not overjoyed every second of the day. But I am happy. I have a great family who irritated the shit out of me but are there any time I need them. I have some wonderful friends who make me laugh and make light of any sucky situation. I also have a boy brightens my day and is everything I ever wanted in a man. We force each other to see reality. We keep each other’s feet on the ground and remind each other to laugh at the world. Although Tyler and I bicker almost constantly, I never ever walk away feeling hurt, mistreated, lonely, or unwanted. He makes everything real and good.
I am figuring out where I want to school. I am about to have my own place in Ann Arbor. I am about to have a well paying job so I won’t have to go hungry while living on my own. I’m about to live only a few mins away from Tyler. I have so much potential for my future building up I might explode!
So yes, I am to busy being happy. I’m so busy being happy that I don’t have time to sit around feeling sorry for myself or sympathize with people who are doing nothing for themselves.
Being happy is hard work. It’s a full time job really. Why should I waste my free time doing something that could jeopardize all my progress?
“We wear clothes, and speak, and create civilizations, and believe we are more than wolves. But inside us there is a word we cannot pronounce and that is who we are.”—Anthony Marra, A Constellation of Vital Phenomena (via likeafieldmouse)